So I haven't posted in ages. I got slack. I am really struggling at the moment. I am desperate to lose weight even though my treatment team don't want me to. I weigh 48kg. I am going to start blogging what i have each day to eat. My PTSD has been quite bad. I feel rather unsafe with all the nightmares and flashbacks. I am working with my counselor on this trying to feel safer and more grounded.

I have hardly lost any weight only 400grams...it really sucks. I am impatient i just want it to drop off quickly.

Intake so far:
Breakfast: 1 cup Orange Juice
Lunch: Banana
Snack: Handful of Corn chips and French Onion Dip (Purged)
Can of coke (my brother bought it for me, so had to drink it)


I am going to Gloria Jeans when mum gets home...i am a bit worried about the calories but i am going to risk it. Hopefully i can get out of dinner if not i we are having soup so i will ask to serve my own and only put in a little bit, and NO bread!

So i haven't lost any weight since yesterday i am hoping for a lose tomorrow...but am not really expecting one.

Intake so far:
Breakfast: 1 Glass Orange Juice
Lunch: Half a chicken and pesto sandwich and a glass of coke(i purged but i don't think i got rid of all of it)

I am hoping to get out of dinner but i probably will just have to purge again....I hate purging i don't know if it even really works but it makes me feel like i am at least trying to do something.

I have done a 12min jog and 200 sit-ups today so hopefully that will help a bit as well.

A new start

Well Hello.

I never know how to start these things. But i doubt anyone will read so it doesn't matter to much anyway.

I have an eating disorder. I have been in recovery and am at a healthy weight. But i can't handle it and now longer want to be at this weight.

I am 4ft 11" and weigh 51.2KG. I want to go back down to my lowest. (38KG)

It is going to be hard work but i am determined. I don't really get hungry so that is a plus and i am starting a detox with my mum in 2 weeks so hopefully that will get rid of some weight as well.

It is hard because i have had to move back home so i can't really get away from eating dinner but i am usually able to purge it and i don't eat breakfast or lunch anymore so i am hoping that i will be able to lose this weight quite quickly.